I am. A snob! It's pretty much bred into young ballet dancers. I learned to be petty and catty, and to view pointe as the be-all end-all of good technique. Switching from high school dance classes to a college club (less formal, student-run) was a trip. I can tell that the freshmeat are the same as me: they come to rehearsal in buns and pink tights and ballet slippers, desperate to hold onto the conventions of their youth. I didn't think I would ever loosen up, but I did. I'm at rehearsal in a The Cure T-shirt, flared black leggings, and dumb socks with sushi cats on them. Like, cats inside sushi. It's hard letting go, but I genuinely feel much happier here than I did as a ballet kid. Students get to call the shots on casting and choreography and costumes, so I feel like I'm working WITH those things instead of having them forced on me. I do miss the strength I had as a ballet kid, but my technique is much better now--I look prettier and more confident on stage.
So what the title refers to is me finally getting over looking down on not being en pointe. A lot of the dancers who have no interest in pointe in this club are actually very skilled. They look beautiful, and they don't need to put their feet through hell to do it. And now
I'm not jonesing for pointe in every dance I do. Well, not right now, at least. I'm chill with dancing Harlequin Doll on flat, since it's mostly jumps. I kind of wanted to petition to do it en pointe purely because of the echappe releves, which are a POINTE STEP. But I think it's fine, since I'm not really going to be turning or doing extensions. I don't need that added CLACK CLACK CLACKing in my life.
I've just been thinking about ballet so much since I saw that ballet last night. I was contemplating future roles--I'm almost sure I'll be Sugarplum next year. Who else is qualified? My dream is to be Clara-as-Sugarplum, but I would like to be a decent person and not take up all the roles. Other people deserve their time in the spotlight, too [said through gritted teeth].
Here's my favorite Sugarplum choreo:
... wow, they did her dirty with that thumbnail.
Also, we're talking about doing Cygnets for the spring show, which... well, everyone knows this one, but I'll embed the video anyway.
I was supposed to perform this 2 years ago, but was ROBBED because somebody dropped out, and we couldn't have three little swans. So my choreographer had us do a contemporary pointe dance, which I DID NOT SIGN UP FOR. I hated the music. Grrr.... I hope I never have to do another CONTEMPORARY dance as long as I live. I hate contemporary dance. (not to be confused with neoclassical or modern, although I'm not a huge fan of modern anyway--I just hate how every time I try to work with contemporary, I hate the music or the choreo or both. And it doesn't come naturally to me to choreograph myself--I only know how to choregraph neoclassical.)
Signing off now, I have a neuro presentation to do, but my head is simply swimming with ideas for future ballets!